we neva always get wat we wanted

2006-11-13T18:24:00.000+08:00

hmmm..came back from the sph chalet ytd nite ard 1130....damn tiring..cos din rly slept well the night before also...slept at 2am but wake up like ard 430..cos one of my friend suddenly down with flu..may be cos of the cold aircon..and i cant get to slp again cos i was only sleepin on the bed without mattress..so hard and the aircon blowin at me..haha..but..it was fun la..went to listen to one of our senior's talk on sat afternoon..den went to nearby hawker for dinner..ate for 2++ hours..haha..cos we waited some time for some ppl..lol..hmm then off we go to the chalet ard 9pm..and after all the unpacking and admin stuff..we went out to the beach at ard 11+pm for some snaps...and u noe wat?! we came back at ard1+pm just to shoot one shot..haha..well...the shot wasnt dat easy to coordinate and all..and yea..sorta learned the settings and all..sunday~ tried to shoot sunrise in e morning but to no avail..haha..sun not coming from the side dat we waited..but yea had some shots in the area..had BK for breakfast..not bad..then had some critique session and all..and we had some feedback sessions and lookin back for the year and ahead for the afternoon...had some indoor potraits shoot followed by the outdoor..and the bbq!!haha..yeap..overall i think i learn quite a bit ba..
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haiz...tdy~~~....very sad...hmm the day was quite orite tho..except for some moments whr i was bit sleepy...but luckily managed to pull thru for all the lessons..however~ i saw smth dat made me feel damn sad and aiya...i also donoe wat to say abt it....anw..trying to get the whole scene outta my mind...why did i hafta see u doin it?! how u define the word ex ar? haiz...anw...was jz thinkin if it was worth it of me to have slightly quarrelled with that person cos i din get it..well..i rly wanted to get it cos can see n and the rest..but aiya...anw..i think its all fated and yeap....saw u smokin..haha..its all gone....lose one le again...sad....

2006-11-10T16:46:00.000+08:00

ytd din blog...quite busy afternoon till ard 8pm ytd..after sch straight away went to century sq sign some papers, den off ot fort to do some shoots for a fren..donoe hows the pix going..i liked some of it though.. =) i rly nid to get myself more familiarised with this kinda shoots seh..cant be so darn shy le..and i mz go look more!! if not donoe how to pose them..den after that went to somewhr near 6th Ave for assignment..shoot food..hmm overall not bad lathe food..as for pix..so so lo i think..anw..the article wil be out on the 29th Nov!! go buy Lian He Zao Bao!! hehe..

haiz...damn sad and angry lar~!!..why he got all 3days of the event shoots?!?!!? i was the one who told them about the event and yet was stabbed and the job's given to others....damn it lo...i don rly care abt e money dat much..i go shoot 3days..u pay me 1 or 2 days i don mind lo..but its jz dat i wana go in and shoot and see them..haiz...damn sad..jz hate it when kana stabbed or watsoeva..u dowan me to shoot or wat jz lemme noe ma...haiz...anw~..

2006-11-08T12:40:00.000+08:00

me agn in the library..break time now till 2pm ltr..and its the basic financial accounting cds ltr..hmm this 3rd day in 5days writing the blog..think getting the hang liao..but yea..tho sometimes i feel dat its a waste of time..but i do get the feel dats its kinda an online journal stuff..hehe..

haiz...abt ytd..think i wud hafta forget abt it.. =) anw..the whole thing is over..event's over, etc..and we cant turn back in times for these kinda things..and as for u..i still hang the Qn mark leh..haiz..i donoe how to tell or ask u abt it oso...talked to 2 of my frens abt this case..they say some stuffs abt it...but i jz cant understand or not sure how to agree/disagree with their views..anw..just hope dat now am not ignored or watsoeva by u =) and yeap..as said that i hope to forget ~ u..but am jz e type who cant forget this kinda fast..hai..nvm la..got used to it liao..

hmm jz had test on the HumanFactor test on monday..it was quite orite la...the qns r like from the tuts one la..hahaah..of cos to the exception of 3 of them..not rly sure but just answer lo..since its mcq and they r supposed to be common sense questions -_-'' i like mcq..who dont right..haha..but common sense mcq? hmmm......then its like the rest of the subs are mostly memorising works la..so sad..so many to mug on..sianz..and am stillhere in frnt of comp typing..and my weekends are for photography now..die die ar..nvm la..shud learn how to manage time liao lo..nx term which is from January to ard march..will be a much busier term with all the assignments, group projz and all..den somemore got one wedding to shoot on a sunday in january..jz days after my bdae..lol..hmmm..oh well..one bad thing during my nx sem is dat my bdae's on monday and i got no cny..sianz lo..my exams jz the week after cny..

hmm k la..write till here first for now...ciaoz....one more hr to lesson...awww..
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heyz!! am soo happy that i made the wrong decision..u noe y?! cos just found out daat she aint lying at all!! yay!! =)

2006-11-07T10:57:00.000+08:00

hmm...two days din blog..sian...at home go home feel like reading up some books bt donoe y jz cant get myself into it..now in school lib..waiting for 12pm for the lesson to start agn...

hmm was jz chatting wif my fren..she's like workin in this tea compny..now cahnge to the younger generation boss liao...den he got lotsa big ambitions and my fren got to go aorund with him to lotsa places ard e world...isit good or bad ne...i cant imagine e jetlag she experienceing..but yea...have to manage time well oso la...if nt canot squeeze time out for enjoyment...hehe..however..she relate me to another fren of hers whos workin in simialr line..shes now relocated to Dubai for a yr!! some may think dat its so gd and fun eh..but i cant imagine the poor r/s she gonna have with her hubby over the year..they r nt gonna see each other!!

hmm is dat life? we jz cant control most of our life~ =)

anw ltr maybe gg to clarke quay area for a while...kudos to e few of u whos in the Semis ;)
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haiz....damn sad argh~!!!!!!!...feel like gg to Este...but din get it!!!! damn!!!! shudnt have even told him any news of it i think...haiz...wat to do...they r gonna start in a while...and i am neither invited nor asked to go shoot...haiz...gonna b a sulky nite for me...brain gonna b at Este while body at home...haiz.......
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damn it...oredi so pissed dat i cant go...but why did i have to find out dat ur lying too?! txs alots!!!...both cases jz made my day...darn~

2006-11-04T17:03:00.000+08:00

hmm ..so long din write liao..hmm i think i wud try to make it a point to at least write something here everyday or every few days no matter how long or short it is..
haiz...lotsa stuff have past by these days...have just started school for the 2nd week and starting to be into the 3rd soon..all e tests, assignments are coming up...i need to tackle photography, studies, friends, etc...now my timetable dismisses me at 5pm and 4pm on mondays, tuesdays& wednesdays respectively..thurs at ard 2 and fri 1...so oni got thurs and fri to study in school or sometimes go library study lo..hmm jz recntly bought 2nd hand mp3 from a friend...it really accompanied alot..during my bored times..lol..den my weekends are for shoots i hope..dats y hope to maintain my good results and still able to b enthu in my fotografy.. =)
hmm these days got another headache..well~shud i call it headache? i donoe either..i have to force myself to forget u..err not forget la..as in giv up on u maybe? hmm one of u out there know what am i talkin about.. =) txs alots for keepin it.. =) after havin made the decision..saw ur frenster n another site...maybe it tells me dat i made the right decision? i really donoe..cant bring myself to forget u soo fast..hope i have not fallen deep into this well..anw..txs lots for the experience u gave me..frens 4eva yea.. =D oye..gd luck to u too..
i think after this last encounter..i really gonna give up on this kinda things..
hmm anw...gonna study liao lo...hee...shall update agn soon yea.. =)

hi ppl...

2006-07-10T16:22:00.000+08:00

hi there...haiz..its been such a long time ince i last came here..missin so many ppl and stuffs out there..
gosh..feelin so sad now..haha...jz got the new that i missed the yr1 director list by jz a damn small margin..jz saw the list of ppl who got it..there's 52 ppl for my course and its like accordin to wat they say..m the 53rd!!?!??!!! argh~....haiz...tho its a yearly stuff..i think it would be mcuh more difficult to get in in my yr2 and 3..hmm..tink i nid to rly work hard..
hmm nowadays been more active into my fotog tho..yay...ppl wana see see some ugly pix can go my multiply view them.. ;) hmm cos sch jz started not very very busy yet..but soon it gonna b busy agn..sigh...so yeapx...gotta rush thru all over agn.. =) the term test results are out..and haiz...for most of it..i got so much careless mistakes wasted..quite happy wif my maths tho..hehe..but darn disappointed in my mct..some programmin sub..been nt gd in these stuffs..sianz..
hmm gtg continue class liao... =) havin class soon.. cya all arounds eh..and if got any lobang wan ppl help them take pix inform me ya... =p
oya WorldCup fever jz subsided and Italy jz won the world cup..tink dis yr WC bit odd sia..haha..many teams are not in the game..and some of e match are so darn unexpected..
adios~..

txy yinxin

2006-03-28T12:42:00.000+08:00

oyar...forgot to tell u guys of my yinxin hui dat day..hee..was damn fun de lor..all txs to wanting who intro me to this..she know i love fotog and jz nice the zaobao papers recruiting new tong xunyuan ppl agn dis yr..den i jz itchy hand go and try my luck to apply lor..showed them 5 pics and yea..went for e small interviewand managed to got in..was so damn happy wif the new dat i got in lor.. =) its the students correspondent group *she ying dui..went for the orientation especially planned by the oldies..haha..nt rly old lar..as in they our seniors lor..got in there much earlier b4 us..obviously met lots of new frens there..and hmm can click along wif them quite well tho..dats so gddd..they planned it for 3++mths and yeapx it was a real success tho as i see it..all of us rly had lotsa fun together..especially in e 3rd day at 晚会..the whole audi was so high!!roughyl tell some of that i still rmb ba..
hmm e 1st day - well the audi was full of newbie ppl and of cos some of the seniors in charge of the orientation and stuffs..and yar...luckily we the she ying dui gotta meet each other and had some meetings before the orientation and stuffs..so yea..we werent dat strangers to our own grup tho of cos still nt as close yet..hmm the ice breakin game and all was quite fun tho..and we saw some pics by the zaobao fotog in charge of the talk at dat moment..was quite cool de lor..get to see those fotogs in action and see some of their pics first hand in their slides presented to us on e 1st day..then played some games of cos..
2nd day - the 户外采访 was quite an expeerience tho..the she ying dui split into 4 groups to b with the diff ying to tk pics of wat they interviwed abt..my grup went to old fort museum..and i was so lucky to meet the director of e museum..-wahaha...hmm then played some games too..
3rd day - we had a small amazing race nearby sph area..was quite fun tho we oni given 2hrs to complete 6stations..got my hair waxed up like the previous gatsby hair wax advertisement..haha..hair made up so high up..heehee..was quite cool tho..but yalor..too avoid being too tall and bit weird lookin at the wan hui..i messed it up lor after returnin to e baoguan..hahah..the climax is the wan hui..was rly exciting..i tink the best for everyone is the strutting done by the 20 committee members involved in planning e orienation..and the part whr dianjun sexily strutted here and there on the stage..hmm she ying dui won the best group award tho..haha..it was cool..we r rly much more bonded after e 3days i tink..and e prize?!?we were showered wif small titbits like twisties, and other small crackers..haha..i rly tink the whole orientation is a success tho..
and e 3days of fun and enjoyment past by so damn quick and b4 u noe it e whole thing is over..i rly miss the fun..hope to have much more future meetings not oni within our she ying dui group and mayb if possible can interact with the other ying and the man hua grup oso..
hmm shall continue post in a few days time agn den..gtg.. =) tc ppl..

2006-03-28T12:26:00.000+08:00

人非圣贤，孰能误过。。我们难免会有行差踏错。。
为何不读多体谅人呢。。唉。。做人难，难做人。。
我们都希望过着完美的生活。。但我们也知道这世上没有任何一种东西是完好的。。
不是吗？

2006-03-24T12:35:00.000+08:00

hmm its been a long time since i blogger eh..hmm..
kie..ytd met up wif doug and pei to discuss our biz..was quite nicely done tho i must admit..but yea..hope can get some money rollin in soon lor..am rly broke..and rly wana buy an slr cam soon...haiz..den met up wif howe and her church fren leonard for movie and dinner..haha..jz realised u damn funny sia howe..lol..watche V..nt bad tho..Freedom is wats it tokin abt mainly tho..fighting for own path and freedom..and nt to be controlled by others..yay..hais..bt dat would rarely happen to anyone of us tho..we r noticed and controoled by e ones above us..well.we r children now, have our parents..and even parents cant always have full freedom too due to thier un/forseen circumstaces comin their way..hmm true dat we may nt agree to wat they told us sometimes and wat we cud do is jz some quarrellings ard..bt how long can some quarrel last eh..毕竟we hafta meet, hear from them everyday..hmm..

2006-03-09T12:49:00.000+08:00

hi there ppl..nth much still ba.. =)
hmm btw if u have any frens or relatives coming to singapore and in need of a place to stay.. =)
my place is in town and easily accessible by mrt, bus..of cos taxi no nid to say lar..big rooms..my place is just diagonaaly opp MtE hospital and its very near to paragon and other shopping centres in town area..feel free to contact me by emailing to smokeput@hotmail.com =)

2006-03-07T12:23:00.000+08:00

sigh boring day these days..haha...but yay..am rly lookin forward to this sunday and nx wk thurs to sat...cos got some outing..hehe..shant tok muck abt it first till the time come..sigh k lar..shall post agn ltr..chao bored liao..haha..
sigh shud i go chalet anot..rly blur sia..feel like n don feel like...
hais...life is soo diffi..

2006-03-01T16:53:00.000+08:00

think it was worth my time gg back meridian jc today sia..was there to meet my 2005 3mths frens...gosh it was so damn fun catchin up with them..i rly like those feeling where we can rly crap ard..txs alot eh liyana for bringin me in the sch..haha..or i'll feel so paiseh gg in jz nw..cos little ppl of outside shirt jz nw when i arrive..then met up with liyana, stephen, karen, kahmun, aiting, avinesh, kenneth... txs lots ppl for comin down to see me..hahaha...i VIP sial..hehe..but haiz times flies jz now and nid to leave u guys at 2 cos u guys nid to tk ur chinese results..hehe..
hmm then after dat met up with joachim and luckily he drag me into the hall to acc him to take his As results..gosh the feeling was sooo darn cool..of cos if u did well and if u can get the course u want in uni eh..but yea ~ am in poly now..so will not have this feelin..haha..worst still i have to work doubly hard cos uni oni take in the top few %age of the poly grads..yupx..and Mj once agn did quite gd i guess...its their 2nd batch of A lvl results dis yr..and it can be said dat it greatly improved quite alot from last yr...with abt 92.3% passes in errr damn i forgot..ahah..and got abt 80++ ppl got >=3 distinctions..and u know wat!? i even saw ppl gettin stratight As includin their S-papers..gosh~that is damn good lor...
and the scens i saw..of cos some were so damn happy with their results..with some jumpin around with their result slip in their hands..but unfortunately for some..yupx...shall not further on with dat..Congrats to those who did well and have done exceedin ur expectations.. =) Cheer up yar those who done not as well..
and of cos for the chinese As results...i no idea how my frens score yet tho..but as wat i heard from 2 of them..they got b3...hmm..not bad? for jc lvl...
hmm...i hope i made the right choice then of goin into poly..haha..and anyways since am in poly liao..so have to work hard in order for me to get into uni..errrr preferrably ntu? cos ntu takes in more engineering students.. =)
ciaoz..tc ppl..

2006-02-26T23:05:00.000+08:00

super suay lor today...wake up early in e morn..and like already so forgetful for 2 occasion..then went to "bedok" for my interview..gosh i was so darn clear dat i heard they asked me to wait for e person in charge at bedok mrt at 1030..and u noe wat..?! the gal in charge called me and i confidently said dat i am already waiting for u at bedok mrt and saw no one here..and at last she said Bradell and not bedok..damned..so i took a train agn back to bradell..luckily e journey took oni abt 30mins..ut when i reached there was alreadi like 10 others includin e gal in charge waitin for me...so sry mann...hmm...e whole thingie went quite smooth i tink..of cos er er durin e interview session i er got nervous and shook a bit i tink..lolx..but yea..i used my limemags too..believe can b a small advantage for me..hehe...rly hope i cud get in for this..can get to know more ppl and yea of cos broaden my knowledge..
hmm..den after went to mit u at tamp..den went town lor..den went to eat at damn forgot e place name..aiyA at heeren lar..haha..txs lots eh..haha..for ~..aiya 'vryting? haha..saw ur 2 galfrens & boyfren..lolx...
lil pics time agn..haha...

e small cd place of olden times? where we insert some coins to play some music...of cos dis cant b used animore..haha..

hehey..owaes see this sweet..but neva tried it b4 till tdy..it's damn nice ler..ahha..but warning its *AdDiCtIvE...haha..

doggie i seen at heeren today..hmmm not so handsome tho..haha..tink its e chow chow species ba.. =P

aiy0..see dis gal..so crazy over her jeelibean..er if i din spell wrongly..haha..but e real name of e product is Poifull..lolx...she get me trying one lar on dis gummy..haha..DON xiang wai hor..she not my gf...i still single..and ~ she attached..haha..so yea..shut up on dat..lolx..

2006-02-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

*Phew...after all those pictures...shall not put up pics first for a few post unless necessary..haha..aniways..wohoo!! i went to e2max at cine at last...went there myself jz nw..haha..nice ambience there...mostly for gamings tho..BUt!!..there are also rooms for us to book..hmm can play play in there..can even use for group study..well dats wat they say lar..haha..yep den went chat wif Jan a while, cos her frens came too, den come home lor..upload these pics..haha..

2006-02-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

hmm...after all those mei nu meng nan..here are some pics of yamaha motor..and some F1 pics..haha..they are on exhibition till tml..come to taka to see the yamaha and wisma to see the F1..hahah..

2006-02-25T19:48:00.000+08:00

wohhooo....tml havin small interview with ZaoBao as some small fotog..hahas...am so nervous & excited abt it..hehe...it'll be the first interview in my first life..be it a very formal or casual one..hppe will get in ba..soo in another way will keep me occupied oso durin my this 6wks hols..haha..donoe got salary also anot..hope got lar of cos..haha..
hmmm....here are more of the pics of ytd nite's fahion quest at PS..
hope u'll like it.. =) i jz upload few more pics of ytd...den got more cumin ups.. ;P

2006-02-25T14:40:00.000+08:00

wah -------~~~~~~ damn sianz sia..haha...today 2nd day of hols..kaos..chao sianz liao...haha..no progs..hmm..ltr nid to go hunt down where the hell is orchard bldg..search for jap class...sigh always go out no come in canot sia...anyone got any gd lobang out there?!.. hahaha..k lar...show u some pics agnn..heez...ytd got some fashion quest at PS..was late when i go there..so din gt a gd place to take e pics...forced by e circumstances to go 3rd flr to tk e pics..so yea~ din get splendid pics..but hmm..still can b seen lar..hehe..hmm..some are bit blur tho..hmm show u guys these two first...hehe...the rest haven brighten the pics yet.. =)

2006-02-23T22:12:00.000+08:00

eloz ppl..sigh..hmm why am i sighing when i shud b happy dat exams r finally over...hehe...final xams are over for Tp..hahahah...party time for next 6 weeks den go yr2 liao...took 3 papers thid week tho..sigh out of e 3..i think todays the 'best' ar tell u...actually like er got prepare leh..but still donoe y..cant do some of it..damn it and for one of e qn was supposed to be so easy but i jz don understand wat they wanted at the point i was readin the qn..even tho i read it agn adn agnn..saddened sia..hmm..tuesday maths was orite lar i suppose but the last section- part C was a real killer...9 marks jz flew off the paper straight(every yr partC always been the killer question was actually 12 marks for qnC but tink for the other 3marks can get some marks for it....)..well at least lesser than today one lor...hahas..sianx...then monday eckt paper was fine i hope...of cos got some qns not rly how to do oso...but i jz hantam for some lar..hopin to get some marks..hehe..hmm den jz nw after paper..went ard cine walk walk..gosh been rly lg since i rly walked ard i tink..haha...walked ard all e way to er 3rd or 4th floor i tink..haha..cos after dat is the cinema, e2max and bowlin..hmm neva went to e2max b4 tho..hopin to go there someday..wonder wat it is..heard its quite nice place..haha..took some silly pics alg e way jz now..haha..oyes..and went to deliwheels for a while too...lolx.....oyar...my 3rd lime pics are out too..hehe...electrico band pics i took for lime mag at rgs on e 4th Feb..din went to see chingay even tho i got e tix bcos of this assignment..*sobs..but yea..its a real experience..hehe..
hmm these pics nth much lar ar..jz tryin out oni..ahha...cos neva put pics in bloggie b4..haha..nx time will put nicer ones..hehe..

2006-02-15T17:44:00.000+08:00

helo there..to all my frens.. =) ..sry if i missed u out.. =)
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2006-02-13T21:28:00.000+08:00

Well to find a gal should b quite similar eh.. =) jz happen to get this email to be finidin a guy..lolz..
Find a guy,
who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

2006-02-02T22:12:00.000+08:00

Saw someting interesting agn..lol..
Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weak and most susceptible?
Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need someone to protect them?
Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are: I love you, Sorry and help me Did you know that those who dress in red are more confident inthemselves?
Did you know that those who dress in yellow are those that enjoy their beauty?
Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?
Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two folds?
Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face?
But did you know that it has more value when you say it to their face?
Did you know that if you ask for something in faith, your wishes are granted?
Did you know that you can make your dreams come true, like falling in love, becoming rich, staying healthy, if you ask for it by faith, and if youreally knew, you'd be surprised by what you could do.
But don't believe everything I tell you, until you try it know that you can help, you'll see that it will be returned in two-fold.

2006-01-16T15:47:00.000+08:00

hi hi there ppl...sigh a yr older le..18 liao loh..
anyways..ytd parents had a small bdae celeb for me at home..well..it was quite fun though..although its nt really a fully frens celeb..lol..But can u imagine it..dis is my 1st time celebrating some event wif my frens..gosh..we had lots of fun..txs lots to those who took some precious time to come.. =) ..invited some Mjc, TP, and my sec sch frenz..
hey to the ones who wished me at the first moments..as in..12 - 1am..txs lots yea..txs for remebering..lol..Enlin(rcved right at 00:00am..cool..), Yoan, Janice, ShuYan, Jerlyn, WanTing, Charmaine, Charlotte, JunHowe, Tom..
After 1am..hahah... Nellie, Emilyn, Adeline, KiaHui, ChorKhoon, Yeeling, ChengLin, Klara, Kahmun, Liyana,..
For the 3 gangs who came ytd..txs lots ppl.. =)
BroadrickSec - ShuYan, Melvyn, Wasis, JunHowe..
Txs ShuYan, Melvyn, JunHowe, Ccl for the tripod.. =P
TP - Wanting, Yvonne, Joyce, Alex, KaKin..
Txs Wanting, Yvonne, Joyce, YeeLing, Kokchin for the cool Adidas shirt.. =D
MJC - Stephen, Mitch, Liyana, Kevin, PengYuan, Aiting, Karen...
Txs All for the cute dog plush toy..lol..and tanxs for the pranks loh..haha..luckily the ppl u sabo-ed believe me more ar..hahahs...Sad thing Avinesh, KahMun, Andy cant come.. (",)
Txs Jerlyn for the wrist chain ?!? (hahas..nt sure wats it called..) though u cant come ytd =)
Was real fun yesterday, will send ya pics asap yea.. haha
Gosh just rcv Sms from KahWen..tanxs lots pal..u still remeber sia..hahahs...so touched..have fun and all e best in NZ yea.. =)

2006-01-15T09:38:00.000+08:00

yo hey..haiz..am a yr older agn today..at this very moment..txs lots ppl who remembered and wished me bdae within 12 to 1 am..haha..kies..will update u ppl again soon..go prepare and do homework liao..rushing ...ARGH!!!!!

2006-01-11T19:18:00.000+08:00

Because of you
my world is now whole,
Because of you
love lives in my soul.
Because of you
I have laughter in my eyes,
Because of you
I am no longer afraid of good-byes.
You are my pillarmy stone of strength,
With me through all seasons
and great times of length.
My love for you is pure
boundless through space and time,
it grows stronger everyday
with the knowledge that you'll always be mine.
At the altar
I will joyously say 'I do',
for I have it all now
and it's all because of you.

A gentle word like a spark of light,

Illuminates my soulAnd as each sound goes deeper,

It's YOU that makes me whole

There is no corner,

no dark place,

YOUR LOVE cannot fill

And if the world starts causing waves,

It's your devotion that makes them still

And yes you always speak to me,

In sweet honesty and truth

Your caring heart keeps out the rain,

YOUR LOVE, the ultimate roof

*copyrighted from some blog*

although cant be zai yi qi..bt its alritez de..ahhaahs...c u happi can le.. =) will always b by ur side..hahahaha...wish ya all e best..lolz.. =D tanxs lots frenz who there for me always..

2006-01-10T10:55:00.000+08:00

sigh haven got the mood to update since ur loss.. =) so yea..have thought and modifies this..
A True Friend...
(A) ccepts you as you are
(B) elieves in "you"
(C) alls you just to say "HI"
(D) oesn't give up on you
(E) nvisions the whole of you
(F) orgives your mistakes
(G) ives unconditionally
(H) elps you
(I) nvites you over
(J) ust be with you
(K) eeps you close at heart
(L) oves you for who you are
(M) akes a difference in your life
(N) ever Judges
(O) ffers support
(P) icks you up
(Q) uiets your fears
(R) aises your spirits
(S) ays nice & bad things about you
(T) ells you the truth when you need to hear it
(U) nderstands you
(V) alues you
(W) alks beside you
(X) plain things you don't understand
(Y) ells when you won't listen and
(Z) aps you back to reality

2005-12-30T14:55:00.000+08:00

Sigh?!!?why do i keep thinking of ya non stop..used to be quite chatty bt nw never even talked..well the least u cud think 0f..sigh..
likin a person means hafto give them wat they want eh -- as in their happiness ?!?! is dat statement always true..i don hav e ans myself..

2005-12-27T12:44:00.000+08:00

i dont like you,cause i love you
i dont want you,cause i need you
i wouldnt cry fr you, cause i will die for you
i wont live for you, but i will live with you
i wouldnt do anyting cause i will do everyting
i chose my life, cause you're my life
*got it from my email and modified by me(cos i seen a blog with similar wordings)..

WhY!??!?!

2005-12-27T08:50:00.000+08:00

Why!?!? why am i feeling like this again?!?!..really hope am not used by u though..but its gd dat u r so frank wif me.. =) i cam seem to be strong in any others but not in these..sigh..its a totally diff person from last time though..the previous was easy and quick to forget as dat person was just nt the type..sigh..i even once shed for u..neva been like dis b4..sigh..no mood for anything liaoz..feel lost..BuT its alritez..we r still frenz 4eva.. =) btw can any1 kindly advise me on where to improve..lolz..
had a darn boring xmas though..
ytd was "Tsunami, a yr on..." i really feel sad for them..how i wish i cud help them..and if oni i cud too,-- i would like to got he those places, etc.. to take pictures to show the worlds, there are much more sufferings than happiness in this worlds..& dat there will be no one person who have no problems at all in their lifetimes..howeva..Look to bright side yea.. =)
4more days to new yr..bt guess it make not much diff for me..=p
anyways am in sch nw..home no comp agn..lolz..sianz..

2005-12-23T13:43:00.000+08:00

What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness?
What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?
So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life.

I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you.
No ma tter how often we talk, or how close we are..
Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will.

Remember, everyone needs a friend, and take comfort in knowing some body out there cares about you and always will.

I'll Always Be There
In times of trouble,
In times of need,
If you are feeling SAD,
You can Always count on me.
I will give you a wink,
Until you smile,
give you a hug,
And stand by your side.
I'l l be there for you till the end,
I'll always and forever, be your closest best friend ever!

Our friendship never changes and never ends..

2005-12-16T15:12:00.000+08:00

wew..next week is the 2nd sem term tests..EngineMaths2 -- monday then got dfund2 and edevckt on wed and thurs..BuT sigh lots of hws to do even during the 1wk hols--pcb,tcs,jap role play,fot competition,etc...sigh anyways gotta go bk hm liao..hm comp still spoil..sianz..

2005-11-30T15:27:00.000+08:00

haiz..busy week ahead.. =( and u know wat..i haven finished my Lime mag assignment..Omg!! and i have not done my Jap cds presentation..damn!! well although i got Sake as the topic of my presentation..but i still not sure of where to get the infos from.. =( and the worst thing is that i gotta memorise the speeches..gosh!! sigh having quite a number of events gg on for me this weekend..but which one shud i go !?! i have a chinese lesson at 1pm at home..but i also hafta go to NE at Tp..then also got sc meeting this friday at 630(well..i dismiss sch at ipm -_-") ; Sc slam dunk in tp the whole day..and i gotta go for LiMe *scape near cineleisure orchard..sigh think i'll have to forgo my saturday's sports club.. =( of cos i hafta buck up in my studies and lifestyles too or i will die lah everyday play..sigh..thats life..*bleah..k lah..cya..gotta go for cds liao..

..Real Fren..

2005-11-25T17:34:00.000+08:00

A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.
A simple friend has never seen you cry.A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.
A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names.A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.
A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.
A simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed.A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.
A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems.A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.
A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.A real friend calls you after you had a fight.
A simple friend expects you to always be there for them.YOU can expect a real friend to be always there for you !!!

2005-11-21T16:02:00.000+08:00

gosh last few days was like quite busy so yea..didnt come to blog..and whats worst is that my laptop is having some problems with the internet explorer..sgih..
nayay..so eager to wait for the event latr..i joining the badminton competition..it starts at like 6pm..and i am having jap lec from 5 to 6 later..gosh..i left home at about 7.30 this morning and the whole event will be like finishing at around 9++ to 10 pm so its like i spent my whole day in school today.. -_-"hope u'll be there since u are staying back too.. hope i can advance to the finals..lolz..but i have not been playing for like er..4mths so yea..hope will not be much lousier..haha..having sc meeting later too at 7pm..gosh..not sure if i can leave my badminton and go for the meeting for a while..sigh..anyways..i gotta go eat or i'll topple halfway later ..lolz..bye..cya pal..

..

2005-11-12T15:03:00.000+08:00

gosh we came in 1st for the team SG banner competition..am lucky to be in sc sub comm and most lucky to have u ppl inviting me to join in..i was quite curious too though abt the competition when i first heard of it..well most of the credit goes to this guy( really mus admit to it loh)..erm we each got few cash and 3D2N return ticket to manila with the team singapore..haiz but too bad cos poly just started not long ago and guess it will be busy periods during the allocated days of departure..so we were thinking of selling it..sigh sending some athletes off to ther competition must be a glory..how i hope i was one of them representing either singapore or indonesia to play badminton..*dream on..sports talents are to be nurtures from young..meeting the group members later for a small celebrations..lolz..
woke up at 4.30 this mornin just to make sure to get the first bus to airport from my home..felt reluctant and happy though..but in the end we have to go and send the 2nd batch of team sg on the 24th as it'' be the official send off and we'll get to see the banner!!then i was like fell asleep all the way from VJC on my way home(luckily din overslept..lolz..)
sigh i really donoe why..i have promised not to "pester" u anymore but i don seem to be able to do that..wat feeling is this?!?!?!
anyways..15th of nov is coming soon..yay..long lost fren,singapore sailor too..haha,is coming back here from aussie..miss her(don misunderstand..just bro&sis..lol) sia..lots to catch up..hahahs..
okies..gtg touch some books liao..cya

Sigh...

2005-11-06T11:23:00.000+08:00

Sigh at this very moment..i donoe why i am so affected by u..i am not sure if u are reading these..i am feeling delighted and yet filled with sorrowness in the other hand..well, delighted as tml is gonna be the first day of yet a school semester and i'm gonna meet more new friends & what delight me most now will be the Jap cds i got into & how i will approach ppl for my currently Lime mag assignment..sorrowness cos..sigh..i don feel like raking up the unhappiness and lets leave it behind me..a fren of mine said this may not be a true friendship..well, i trust her and i'll try my best to forget abt all these that had happened..
well..lets just forget abt all these and look forward for the better tml yea..okie i gtg liao..later gonna bowl at marina square with indon frens from tp..haha..

sch starting..yay..

2005-11-05T15:50:00.000+08:00

O my god...2mths are finally over..Hmm..of i shud not use the word finally cos i don think i have done much for that 2mths..well..sch starting on monday which is just abt less than 48 hours from now..i got into Jap cds..so looking forward to it..haha..anyone in jap cds too in Tpoly!?
sigh..jus tot of writing more but now, a technician's gonna come install some stuffs in my hse so yea..gotta go..

its been a long time

2005-10-27T16:40:00.000+08:00

hi ppl..its really been a long time since i hae not written eh..many things have happened too during this time huh..anyways..i just came back from m cruise hols..its a 4D3N cruise to penang and phuket..and gosh i'll have much to say about it but i cant write now as all the pictures are not sorted out yet..hahas..sry..
oyes..the A levels and the O levels are coming soon eh..good luck to the people taking the exams yarx..
man..poly holidays of 2 months is too long!!..haha..i am getting so sianz lor..well..maybe its only the first sem i hope..haha..

poem i got from a fren

2005-09-08T09:10:00.000+08:00

In this great city that has no end,
Around the corner I have a friend,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on ,
And before I know it, a year has gone.
And I never get to see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
She knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang her bell.
And she rang mine but we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired people.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on her
Just to show that I'm thinking of her."
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance grows between us
Around the corner,
Yet miles away,

"Here's a telegram sir," "She died today."
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.

Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell the person.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time
It might be too late.
Seize the day. Never have regrets.
And most importantly, stay close to your friends
& family, for they have helped
& make you the person you are today.

2005-08-29T19:08:00.000+08:00

My Eva ambition is to be the 2nd taufik hidayat.. of cos to be a successful person if i cant be 2nd taufik..ahah

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2005-08-29T18:55:00.000+08:00

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Guys prefers thin, pretty gals??

2005-08-24T19:34:00.000+08:00

sigh i have been trying to put up a chatbox or rather say a tagbox in this blog page..but to no avail..ok..i was chatting with my friend a few days ago and we suddenly came into this topic of whether guys prefer girls who are thin..of cos firstly i think it depends on how u think THIN is..some people may regard underweight as thin..and some people may follow the height-weight chart..it may seem true to some that they indeed prefer the thinner(or maybe i should say slimer ones) but of cos it is not the same for all..everyone has their own thoughts and 'tastes' on the future partner they want..if everyone in this world choose the slimmer and prettier girls what will happen to those who is more obese and those who are not so appealing in terms of apperances..i think we should still go for whether u love the other party or not..and do not base so much on the appearances..this is indeed a tough thing to do for some though..However there is a saying of 'love is blind'..so love will practically overide most stuffs..this may be because of the chemistry or "sparks" happening between the two..
saying about chemistry i would like to link it to SzeLi's blog posting on "Human Relationship== Periodic Table??"
based on these, many conclusions and questions can arise too..is it true that most guys prefer gals who are thin??or u dont go for looks at all? well..i prefer to be the neutral side..how about ur views??

bored day..

2005-08-20T17:58:00.000+08:00

sigh..it is such a boring day for me today..well i woke at ard an hr after the sun rise..well i got to know the timing from the newspaper of course..haha..i was in deep thoughts with some of the article..will say much more about some of the touching pictures i seen maybe in a few days time..hehehahhah...tanxs alot pal who has been i am like down, etc..ahahha..anyway will update on u ppl on better stuffs in a few days time..don stay away ppl.. =D

Lifestyle ???

2005-08-17T14:49:00.000+08:00

hi ppl..i actually wrote a whole chunk of posts yesterday but who knows the laptop just suddenly restarted by itself for no reasons..which completely deleted my whole posts..
Argh..!!anyway its been a really frustrating day yesterday for me though..but there's one tt can only be told briefly..hahah..
What has the world become?? Ppl would rather rush off to end their work and to pack up, close shop than to do their job well..A good friend told me of her experience yesterday..well..she injured her toenail last week..and she actually went to a polyclinic to get it bandaged..and just because it was nearly the clinic's closing time..the nurses bandaged her toe sloppily..what kind of attitude is this huh?? have they really did their job well enough?! well i dont think so..imagine if its quite serious and the nurses did their job without care..a life may even be lost..
Hmm..and another thing..i was just thinking..Everyone who is born in this world is bound to have happiness & sorrowness showered onto them..Erm..Should we be lucky that we are given the chance to live?? Of course we HAVE to like and accept for who we are..no matter what we are born as and where we are born at..as seen from programmes too, i believe our previous lifes are happy though as they will be reincarnated..BUT as we were born into this world, only the god(or whoever) chosses which family and what state we will be born in..we cant change our fate but we can decide on how we wana live our life..Some of us may not be satisfied that we may be born in that family and in that state..For instance..the born poor can (mostly)never experience good life and vice versa, etc..we have to take into consideration that no one is perfect in this world too though..& Life is never predictable..so always make preparations.. =) Always stay cheerful and happy ppl..think about the good moments..

Happy 40th Birthday

2005-08-06T20:00:00.000+08:00

helo..quite some days i have not written any blogs..quite missed it and actually now i am waiting for my dad to finish cooking dinner..haha..sounds weird eh but thats a fact though..the words of SM Lee Kuan Yew are well said.. "40 yrs ago this place was a mudland,swarms and now it has turned into a modern city".. indeed 40 yrs ago when singapore gained her independence, by leaving then malaya due to disagreements, this place was still not developed..but now..it has been mostly recognised by people of the world..Though it is still seen as a small dot in the world map, it has been growing tremendously since 1965..Me, a foreigner, has come to singapore to study since 1995..Lots of things have changed for the past decade i have been with singapore..well..it can be said that this is my 2nd hometown as i have spent almost more than half of my life here(of cos i return to my hometown during holidays)..many people said (translated into singlish) : wah u studying in singapore ah..not bad ah..u must be very clever..singapore education very difficult and stress one eh.."so u know waht i m trying to say here huh..i mean studying in singapore is really though and stressful..BUT it has certainly paid off..with National Uni of Singapore(NUS) in this yr 18th and Nanyang Technological Uni(NTU) in the top 50 in the world ranking..and NUS beat australia's MelbourneUni(22nd).. not bad isnt it..i planned to either go to MU or NTU tough..haha..of cos i hope to..hey gtg k the story cuts end..hahah..btw here's a small pic i took recently..haha..found it nearly my 'habitat'..

long day in sch huh...

2005-08-01T17:28:00.000+08:00

hello there ppl..its the new day of the month..HOw u guys feeling out there? with all the new stuffs to work on..and lotsa pojects and assignments to do..
sigh there is no more comments for my blog's posts.. =( hahahha.. it's ok..i'll keep on trying to update u guys on world news, my views on them.and of cos some of my daily lifes..hahah such as this post..and hope u guys will like to read them and mayb give some cooments on how am i able to improve on them and ur thoughts and opinion about the cases too..oyea..u can also leave a cooment if u wana know more about me..hahahahhahha... =P
today is such a long day for me huh but of cos the days have to go on with at least happiness / sadness or both..well..my today is both..happiness starts for me early in the morning as i have a companion on the way to school (tanxs alot pal =) )..can u imgine a day u have to pass from 9am to 830pm in sch sigh..its really hectic day huh..of cos there are breaks in between..i am actually dismissed at 4 but i have some trials at 630 so i have to stay in for almost the whole day..
sigh k will u guys soon eh..have to go

ambition..

2005-07-30T17:55:00.000+08:00

Sigh this was supposed to be my 3rd post for this blog but as i am still using the dial up 56K modem..a member of my house needed to use the phone urgently yesterday and therefore my connection was unfortunately cut off..and the whole post just disappeared..
i was just reading the newspaper this morning about an article saying that this sports school (its a four years secondary school that only accepts ppl with sprts talent) in my present country, singapore..has actually developed and produced quite a number of talents..actually in real life many teens may also be talented in certain sports just that they cant afford the far distance of the school and the expensive school fees..and that these talents may not be seen too with them not able to be in the school team or if they are able to be but they arent able to participate in any tournaments..ok..frankly speaking i love to play badminton and hoping tt one day i'll either represent singapore or indonesia to play..singapore cos its where i had my most education from and indonesia cos it has plenty of gd players and i am an indonesian chinese..my idol would be indonesia's taufik hidayat..he plays marvellously..i know i am able to play much betta if i have the chance to be exposed to intense trainings and playing with the good players..sigh how i wish i really could have this slightest dream of mine to happen

Casino..

2005-07-29T04:48:00.000+08:00

Sigh..singapore government is really gonna proceed with their plan of building a casino eh..wat are u ppl comments though..i personally think that its not very wise an idea to build it especially in a minute island/country like Singapore..u ppl may feel that i m speaking at a foreigner's point of view though but i dont really think so..firstly cos as many ppl feel too that singapore gvt has been increasing the goods tax again & again which i suppose many dont like it too..but wat to do...we have no choice but to listen..have u ppl ever heard tt singapore has any riots or whatsoever..i dont think so ever since it gained her independence in 1965..mayb u guys may b thinking of whats the connection with the tax and the casino..BUT singapore being a small country has no natural resources[(although its growing fast and built NEWATER & trying hard to buy sand for recliming land from indonesia)] and therefore the gvt takes the money from us..i m not saying that the gvt is corrupted here..but the unemployment rate in Spore is increasing too..and the ppl working dont get high pay too..moreover, ppl have been constantly taxed..and with the need to maintain the future casino we need to be even taxed higher..sigh it neva up to us to make decision and even it is i bet not many ppl will dare to shout their views as mayb ppls are 'scared' of the govenment or watever mayb...aniway its up to the gvt though to make the decision..btw wats urs..